in the hole.

[thoughts]
What goes up must come down.
I'm in a rut--some call it depression, I call it the period of over-self-analyzing and extensive self-criticism.
I hate the feeling of inadequacy--percolating about my mind like the one fly pestering you as you try to enjoy your lunch in peace.
This intruder invaded my happy cycle of insanity, otherwise known as my daily schedule, in the form of comparative criticism. Why do I even try when I see others who're so much better than myself? It's a frustrating and daunting feeling.

They say that hurts from our past haunt us in the present, dictating our reactions to situations that echo the past situation. I can't claim that this is truth, but perhaps it is true of our subconscious selves.

break down

[creative experiment ii]

The cursor kept blinking.
Stop blinking.
1, 2, 3, 4, 5. 8 ten ...unending
The infinite cycle of things to do
And it won't halt or brake
dont take me, don't make me run running
run in circles
oooOOOO